Two Months Of... Nothing

So... I haven't actually posted on this thing for a while. Couple of months, to be correct. In that absence, what have I been up? Well, truth be told, nothing really. I mean, I had some pretty amazing times. I went to my cabin for nearly a week with my Mom and Rissa. I did other random things... Hiked up a mountain/ hill a couple of times. You know, the usual stuff that you do during the summer. Oh, and then, after summer I started school. Yup, I'm back at ASU. Living up the life of a Sun Devil (expect not really, I'm actually quite the failure of an ASU student). I go to school Tuesday and Thursday... And then I do homework pretty much every other day. I don't really see much of anyone. I've become the hermit I once was again, just to a lesser degree. And that's my life. Exciting, isn't it?

But you may recall that when I got out for summer break I made a list. This list:

"1) Go up to my Cabin with some of my girls

2) Go camping with friends (Green's Peak... Shooting involved hopefully)

3) Hike Mount Baldy!

4) Tube the Salt River (only done it once in my life... How sad is that?)

5) Go to Silverton... Preferably on the fourth of July.

6) Denny's Date with Lora

7) Costa Tuesday's with Amber

8) More Shooting

9) Take my Jeep out... Jeeping.

10) Thatcher!"

Its a fun list, yes? Well, according to this list I did have a pretty exciting summer. The only thing that I failed to accomplish was numbers four and five... Although those were really long shots. I did go to my cabin with my friends, which DID involve shooting. I didn't exactly camp out, but that's okay... I can do that at any point in the year. I hiked the Baldy Wilderness. I went on my Denny's date with the lovely Lora. I went to Costa with the wonderful Amber (although I'm not sure if it was a Tuesday, and it wasn't near as often as I hoped it would be). I went shooting, with the intention of blowing things up. I even went Jeeping, a couple of times. And then... Thatcher. I went twice. Once at the beginning of the summer, and once at the end. And seeing Heather was amazing, as always.

So all in all, I guess my summer was at least SEMI-productive.

My life lately has just been kind of boring... Going to work, coming home from work... Hanging out with people. Its just the same thing over and over again. Which, I'm not going to really complain about. I enjoy moments of it. Generally not work though. But because of work I've been oh so very tired, and I'm getting extremely dark and tan again.

Oh, and I have an infected toe. Yeah, I know, lovely. That's from work too. Go me.

Drowning

I feel like I'm drowning in my life right now.

Slowly

but

surely.

Now, as a lifeguard, I should know how to handle the situation, if we were going on either a literal or metaphorical standpoint. But I really don't. I've been in control of my life (or pseudo-control) for so long now, I don't know how to handle this feeling. I have two completely different ideas in mind, but they would bring me down two completely, dynamically different paths in my life. So this decision is just weighing down on me, like a 50 pound weight that I have to retrieve from the bottom of the dive tank. And for some reason, I just can't get it up. Its almost like its lodged in a corner. But while I'm down trying to retrieve it I'm slowly loosing my oxygen supply that I took the one breath above water to fulfill. Foolish, because this feels like something that I'm going to need an oxygen tank to figure out.

So now I'm stuck at a point where I feel I need to make a decision. I need to come back up to the surface for air. But I don't want to face the possible ridicule that comes with making a different decision that will bring me down a different path than the one I'm on now. I also don't want to pursue something that I don't know if its right for me. That's what I'm doing right now. But there is no option that I know is right for me right now. I just want progression. I want something in my life to progress, and not stay at the standstill that it is now. I want some small source of oxygen while I try to remove the 50 pound weight.

Is that too much to ask?

What's that? It's Hot?

Guess what blogging world? I'm done with my first year of college! That's right, I'm no longer a Freshie (although credit-wise I never was)! I'm now a Junior, meaning I only have two more years of college. Class of 2013 here I come. And then PA school... But I'll think about the length that will add on at another point.

But being done means I'm on summer break now! What will I do with that break you ask? Probably a whole lot of nothing. But it will be an awesome whole lot of nothing! With a few awesome somethings here and there. I'm really excited for those awesome somethings. They will be, well, awesome!

There are a few things that I really want to do this summer:

1) Go up to my Cabin with some of my girls

2) Go camping with friends (Green's Peak... Shooting involved hopefully)

3) Hike Mount Baldy!

4) Tube the Salt River (only done it once in my life... How sad is that?)

5) Go to Silverton... Preferably on the fourth of July.

6) Denny's Date with Lora

7) Costa Tuesday's with Amber

8) More Shooting

9) Take my Jeep out... Jeeping.

10) Thatcher!

There are more, but they don't come to mind at this exact moment. We will see which ones will happen. There are a couple that will definitely happen, as they don't require much travel.

BUT ITS SUMMER BREAK!!!

which means i'm good with the heat